What am I supposed to do?.... I have severe panic attacks, and drug states, I do not sleep ... what should I do?

Good morning, I wanted to ask about a good antidepressant, once I took Miansec, then Pramolan, after miansec I felt silted up and had side effects. I have been using Pramolan for years and it has stopped working. I admit that for a long time I took lorafen, which worked best for me, but I know that it is addictive, but it works perfectly not only on anxiety and panic states, but also on the irritable intestine, which hurts terribly and other drugs do not work only lorafen. Lekraka does not believe me, I think she thinks that I want to force this lorafen from her. Another doctor prescribed me a tritico, he is not bad, but probably too weak. What am I supposed to do?.... I have severe panic attacks, and drug states, I do not sleep ... what should I do? Please help.. I do not have a light life and I did not have, I have had cancer, now I go abroad for earnings, which is associated with stress. please tell me something. Suicide I do not plan, sometimes I want to throw everything in the trash these drugs, but will I succeed? Marta